Power

At church today, I noticed this woman: and I thought to myself, she would make one hell of a sexy man; I would fuck her -- if she didn't have one of "those". But she exuded this "raw feminine sexual power" that some women do, and I thought, "I might fuck her, after all, but we'd both be disappointed".

And I thought, "I WANT that 'raw feminine sexual power', not to possess, but to be a part of who I am". And that's ok -- to want that; to be both man and woman.

There's one type of energy one must express to be the beloved, and there's another type of energy one must express to be the lover. It seems apparent to me that it's the woman who is the lover.

A woman is given "raw feminine sexual power" to be used unbridledly. He/She needs to draw on it's full power. "Raw feminine sexual power" can be intimidating -- Intimidate your man!; Send him running for the door in sheer panic! He'll be running back just as quickly. If you're afraid of losing him, give him something he can't get anywhere else -- give him you, give him all of you.

I have always thought of HP as a man, because I grew up being taught that to want to be with a man was to be a woman, and I ain't no fucking woman. But, I need to learn how to worship Earth Mother in order to nourish the tigress inside of me. I'm horny, and I need to be loved -- I need to let the tigress within me out, and to let it have something to play with.

Let me love you like a lesbian would!