Spite

There's so much nice that can be said about the Fellowship, the Program, about Sobriety and Recovery.

But, it's perfectly possible, and valid -- to stay sober out of "spite". That works. Don't be ashamed of it! Glory in it! Glory in the Pain of it! It will harden your sobriety with battle scars. Pester everyone you meet to the point of their contemplating homicide with how "miserable" you are, and the wisdom you've gleaned from that misery.

I've heard people say that they didn't pick up a drink, so as "not to give those vicious queens at the back of the room something to talk about". And they stayed sober.

So don't turn away any tool that God has set before you. Just because it's not nice. Alcoholism is not nice, and Recovery isn't either.